poem

27.05.05 We came into this world alone and we will end it in lonliness. Truth is no longer spoken on the lips, just lies and deception. Trust is no longer to be found, and rarely a sincere heart. The already dead are remembered, as those living carry on in a state of unconsciousness. What is love and what is it for? Only the true heart for the True Being is all that remains of the flesh and bones and mind and emotions. What way will it all end and will that time become our salvation from this pain, or will it just be a continuation? but this time filled with greater torment, but this time for eternity, no foreseeable end and the knowledge learnt, confirms this. Allah take me at a time when my sabr can no longer proceed, with the pre-requisite that You will be pleased to meet my soul as I return to You once again. Even the love I thought was for You alone, seems to be somewhat flawed, Astaghfirullah wana toubu 'ilaik. The needy are abused for their vulnerability, please do no push them aside also. I need strength from You; please come to the aid of Your trying servant. There is no-one but You, so please have rahmah on the weak soul. Worthless. Helpless. Alone. True happiness does not lie in this life, I realise now. And this is the only way we will realise Your Greatness, Allahu Akbar.